here i am..after the stressing yet fun JMA application period and the "nose bleeding" midterm exams...

at this moment, i really feel that im doing my best (house,acads,org) despite the fact that my whole goal is not completely achieved.there are flaws and sometimes, big big mistakes but (maybe) they are just part of that.every achievement or recognition entails something opposite.we just can't get everything we want..

i really thank GOD for being there for me.if not for him, i may have surrendered in all these trials...i owe my passing grades and achievements to him..honestly, ive been agnostic sometimes that i tend to neglect the fact that GOD is there for me.my faith i guess just deteriorated because of different factors.anyway, now, i realize that faith in him indeed will help us to surpass all life's trials.

im officially a JMAUPM member.the screening process is really fun, not to forget the Pharmaton ad-campaign (our team project-thanks to mark!) that made the team receive the best team marketing challenge.i love my teammates, they're really supporting the team's endeavors...plus, we get to know each other's lives through non-stop chitchats at the tambayan.so far, i can say that joining JMAUPM is something you can be proud of, and no regrets talaga..i can't wait for our acquaintance party next week and be with the whole group...

midterm exams...orcom 101, my major subject, gave a very hard exam.the whole class even say that it was a "nose bleed exam" (we use that term if the exam is so hard that you can't barely lay your pen on the paper to put a correct answer)...as if that all of the topics that we have studied are useless, i feel like i didn't studied at all..nevertheless, i passed the exam, thanks God...my prof also said that not passing that midterm exam is not the end of everything, that you think of shifting to other degree programs just to graduate...HOPE BRINGS ETERNAL...it's not the last exam and there are still other activities that are included in the grading system..she's right, and though i passed, i felt like i can do better than my actual score..i hope i can get a good score next time...

the person i've been mentioning so much in my past posts is not that close to me anymore.i understand, we don't have any connections whatsoever, except that we are ORDINARY friends...nevertheless, im happy that he's happy now not unlike before..

to be continued...

wala...grabe, super saya ng JMA-UPM...im currently an aspirant but i already feel the fun and excitement of being a JMAer...screening process palang pamatay, what more pa pag member ka na, di ba?...as in every tambay day is full of surprises and new friends...saya talaga...career na ito!!!

i saw him today...and he's super sad...promise...i can see in his eyes that he's carrying a burden...as in, he's really sad....when his and my eyes met today, i feel the pain that continues to dominate in him...maybe,it was again because of heartaches given to him by the girl whom he really loves...i hate her, whoever she is....she made him feel sad and miserable...read this: I HATE YOU!!!!...im really hoping that he'll be better in the next few days....i don't wanna see him lonely....

current mood: sad for him....

this goes for that someone whom i've been admiring for a long long time....wahahaha....corny...

Kailan lyrics

Artist - Mymp Album - Versions Lyrics - Kailan Bakit kaya nangangamba Sa tuwing ika'y nakikita Sana nama'y magpakilala Ilang ulit nang nagkabangga Aklat kong dala'y pinulot mo pa 'Di ka pa rin nagpakilala REFRAIN Bawat araw sinusundan 'Di ka naman tumitingin Ano'ng aking dapat gawin Bakit kaya umiiwas Binti ko ba'y mayroong gasgas Nais ko lang magpakilala Dito'y mayroon sa puso ko Munting puwang laan sa 'yo Maaari na bang magpakilala REFRAIN Bawat araw sinusundan 'Di ka naman tumitingin Ano'ng aking dapat gawin CHORUS Kailan (kailan), kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim Kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pinapansin Kailan (kailan), kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin Kahit ano'ng gawing lambing, 'di mo pa rin pansin AD LIB Bakit kaya umiiwas Binti ko ba'y mayroong gasgas Nais ko lang magpakilala REFRAIN Bawat araw sinusundan ' Di ka naman tumitingin Ano'ng aking dapat gawin CHORUS Kailan (kailan), kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim Kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pinapansin Kailan (kailan), kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin Kahit ano'ng gawing lambing, 'di mo pa rin pansin

midterm exams are fast approaching...yeah, im quite doing well in my subjects, except in natsci 1 (physics and chem) for it's really not my forte...numbers, calculations and problem solving don't have a place in me, or should i say i don't have place in them...

i quit my the debate circle...sigh, that was just my dream come true but i just let it slipped out...it was my decision because the requirements are damn so heavy and i can't even manage my sched as well...everytime i attend there, i get frustrated with my performance because i can't give my 100% in the impromptu speech...sad, really sad...anyways, i did joined the JMA-UPM (junior marketing association-UP Manila) and im not letting that slipped away...this is my first time applying in JMA so i must really go for it aor else, i will be left out with 1 org for this sem...

next sem, my sched will be lighter because no more night classes (i hope) but will be heavier...i will have 3 majors and 3 GE subjects, 18 units in all....that was the "overload" for the BA in whole UPM...i love na being an orcom student for i really learned a lot...i love my present prof, Ma'am alice, for she really motivates us to study and give us chances...she's better than sir villar (the most respected and the king of grammar ...hehehhe) in keeping the class alive...im just hoping now that sir villar will not be my prof till i graduate coz i don't want to see line of 3s and 2 and ups in my transcript...he really gives us headache...

the SONA will be on monday...hahaha, the rally will start again in our school...as what we call it, "MOB", people dress in red shirts will walk from faura to mendiola to address their "hinain sa pangulo"...i just don't want to comment on this...i don't want to be caught...wehehehe

gosh, i saw him today....he's really getting better and better everyday...i find him being good to me this past few days...i hope we can have more talks than what we usually do...im not in love with him as wha you can perceive, im just happy and infatuated whenever i see him...on the contrary, i don't want him to know anything about this 'coz i don't want him to stay away...i can get along with this...im not even hurt whenever he talk to other girls....i guess im just so happy whenever i see him...

tinay is really my bestest (if there's such a word like this) friend....she's always there....she keeps my secret and heartaches....she's kind...hayy, in her, i see my other friends in high school who are now busy with their studies....they were also there for me...

last, i really miss you...you know who you are, just in case you remember i have a blog...i know we've been gone through lots of ups and downs, but we still remained friends...im happy that you've adjusted to this kind of life (alam mo na yun...no elaboration needed)...i will be so happy when the time comes that we can have our long talk and movie together...that time will come, i assure you...just hold on tight....okiez?...i'll always be here, in case you need me...

~love lotz

badette ....simply the best....

X.s.

God, thanks a lot....i was able to overcome my deepest fear....i love you so much.... :) don't worry, i'll hold on tight :)

Currently Reading The Gift Of Acabar By OG MANDINO see related

lovelife....hahaha

super to the highest level....im sooooo happy and contented right now....everyday, i wake up feeling "high" with my goals and tasks...as in, walang problema....but, a part of me is saying that "yeah, you're happy, but you're missing something"...and it hurts...i view life now as perfect as it can be, but there's something missing talaga....

sarap din feeling na you really admire someone...and that someone is like the perfect man you've been searching all your life....someone who's down to earth, sweet, gentleman, and kind...but again, it hurts to know na he's liking somebody else(i guess?, but uim not sooooo sure)...with his personality, i know he will never like someone like me (hahaha) because he's always after for the beautiful ones, cute ones, and the like...anyways, im always happy for him because he is contented in his life though he always searches for that woman that will be part of his life...seeing him happy is ok na for me....i hope he'll be able to find that someone who'll take care of him and will love him unconditionally...and sana, he'll not avoid me like what he always do to those people who admire him....i cannot take that....for me, texts and conversations are enough, for i don't own him nor have a right in him....i really wish him happiness and sana we'll continue to have the best friendship in life....

good luck to you.... and i'll stay to be one of your admirers.... :)